they'll miss the taste of wanting you

am i broken?
is it possible for me to remain happy in a job for more than two years?
i wasn't unhappy at backcountry.com.
why did i leave?
the grass is always greener.
i wouldn't have rent-a-parents if i hadn't.
that alone makes it worth it.
but this part sucks.
i can blame anything on someone else.
i'm sure if i could just be grown-up enough about this.
if i could just let it roll.
if i could be a better human being.
have a better heart.
not expect so much from him.

i'm tired.
tired from working really hard not to let it get to me.
it.
the way he treats me different than the others in my department(and not in a good way).
the way almost nothing i do is right.
good.
okay.
the way i am scrutinized like an elementary child when I take 3 minute bathroom visits.
the kings of the clan are held to different standards.
here it doesn't pay to be a queen.
maybe it's a man's world.
maybe i don't party with the right crowd.
whatever it is, something isn't right according to him.