everything's greener and you're still hard to please

i feel lazy. something needs to be done in this life of mine. meanwhile, i just sit here and watch the time pass. i'm not sure what to do. there's a chance i may be at a crossroad. like the kind of crossroad where fifteen different paths converge and you have no clue which of the fifteen paths is the one that you should choose. yeah, that kind. i like knowing there are so many options. the possibility of so much adventure. and i get to choose. i like that part too. but then there's that other part. the part where i have to take action. do something. get off of my ass. leave what's easy and comfortable for something new. you know, take one of the fifteen paths that lays before me yet i have never seen before.

there's a chance i may be getting closer to figuring out what i want to do with the rest of my life. well, attempting to figure it out anyway. there are never any guarantees. i know i don't want to work in an office. i don't like coorporate america. i hate talking on the phone. i'm turning a bit bitter toward the service industry. basically i'm falling into dislike with most of the things i do on a daily basis. i must state the obvious fact that this is not good. thank you for allowing me that. what is good is that there is a world of endless possibilites out there for me to explore.

and in the meantime i'll get some practice doing things i'm not so good at doing. like being patient. leaving my options open. doing new things, scary things. taking the first step when what follows might be unknown or out of my control. god, i'm such a virgo. at least every adventure will be perfectly planned and well organized. stay tuned...