this may be a little too personal for a blog, but it's my blog and this is my life, sue me. i feel broken. i don't know what to do. i'm a little scared, but mostly i feel defeated. i don't want sympathy, i want to feel normal. i don't like this. i feel as though my biggest fears are becoming reality. i feel like perhaps this is all a waste of time. those are my measly thoughts on a thursday morning.