Today*

Today discouragement looms, what if I can't do it?
There are many things I can do but THIS I don't know. While I question I also know failure is not an option, making me wonder the depth of the pain I'll endure to succeed. Soon I will know. Defeat and failure dance on my brain as I consider, "I could give up." Then I remember, when Kara battled a most devastating battle she didn't give up, she fought and her pain I will never comprehend. I am pedaling for Kara, I will fight, I will feel pain and I will remember her. I will honor her.

Today I miss those that I love...I miss you more than normal, today it's almost painful that you're not here. Today I need your hug, the one you give when life seems hard, the one that says "I can't fix it, I can't make it better, but I can love you." That hug makes me feel as though I am the most important thing in the world to you at that moment, and that's all I need...just a moment.

Today nature is calling me. The vista is magnificent. Today the sun shines, the mountains are green, the sky is blue and the fluffy clouds seem to dance as they happily pass by. While life happens my world is still good, still peaceful, and there is still joy. I am surrounded by beauty and I see it in all directions. I am very lucky, lucky to live this life, lucky that I get it...some never do. Today I'll go to the mountain, there I can be peaceful, quiet, thoughtful...there I can just simply be.

*Maybe this blog should have been titled "Today...sappy and emotional" This is to be expected on occasion after all, I am a girl.